Wednesday, January 18, 2006
hmm... nowadays so boring.. went for a drink at tanjong pagar yesterday and it was like.. =.=" becoz i've been drinking warm water the whole night.. glass by glasses.. singing... playing stupid games ><" hmm.. play pool.. life is so boring.. and finally, i got to eat my craving of dou hua ~! muahahaha!! so happy =D i cannot take cold but i took cold dou hua =X heh heh..
found out that i really dunno how to commit myself into love at all anymore.. I've lost all my feelings.. Its like so empty inside.. I dunno what kinda feelings I'm having now.. Ppl often ask mi.. ain't i feeling lonely being alone.. I told them no.. I dun feel like committing anymore.. I guess I've really given up in everything.. Its not that I'm being selfish of not giving a chance to anyone.. Is that I dunno what is love anymore.. No feelings towards anything.. What i know now is to keep myself occupied.. be it slping or watching tv.. I enjoy it... even sian.. its ok.. I just dun wan anyone to waste their time on mi, caring for me, loving me..
There are better ones outside waiting to be loved and concerned.. Not like me.. Who does not know how to appreciate them.. I feel so sorry after rejecting one and another... I dunno why... Felt so useless...
*~I'm Walking Alone~*3:53 PM
[*a dream that never ends*]