Sunday, March 05, 2006

i've rejected another guy again.. and this time, its really hurting to me.. i feels bad whenever i does that.. but this time, it feels more painful.. he really proofed to me that he really needs mi in his life.. but i just can't give him the trust that he wanted.. and he is enlisting into army soon.. i dun wanna be a burden to him anyway.. i guess i'll have to let him go.. instead of holding on.. he feels bad, i felt worse.. its been such a long time since i'm feeling this way.. i'm blaming myself.. for treating him so coldly,by scolding like no way hell.. i'm sorry L****.. u are someone who opened the door that i closed since my previous one left me.. but i closed it for you.. so in order not to let you take another step closer to my heart.. you will get cuts from my unmended broken heart.. its still not mended.. its still in pieces but just placing together to look like one.. i hope you can get to know a girl, who really deserves to be treated and adored by you.. thanks for the memories that we had.. be it drinking.. chatting.. singing.. thanks alot..
*~I'm Walking Alone~*5:17 AM
[*a dream that never ends*]